chronic by proxy

Swill


I was hoping I'd feel more like myself today but my plan didn't work. (Or maybe it did and I forget what myself feels like.)
For the last ten days I've gone to bed and gotten up at times that aren't normal for me. Things just kept coming up...it just was what it was. I like it in one way (because I was able to do all those things I got up for that I wanted to do) but I didn't like it in another way because it felt entirely unnatural and, eventually, unsettling.
So last night I stayed up til 2 and didn't get up til 11 this morning. It was nowhere near as satisfying as I'd hoped it would be.

I wish I knew what to say or that I had some ideas about anything. I......