my statement

To you purveyors of cheap comedy:

I AM NOT AN AMERICAN AUDIENCE.



[25/04/05:)]

thoughts

(1) my ears are my eyes

i.e.: "watching" people without seeing. (It's what I do and I am glad for the skill.)

(2) Until I find the truth, I stick with what I know.

This is an idea in which I can take refuge. When I don't know something I don't need to feel ashamed or be flustered: I make no excuses. That doesn't mean, however, that I can coast in my ignorance. No, it means that I will keep my eyes open for absolute truth to replace my own construction of truth.

(I wrote these on a Roger's Wireless bill envelope sometime in March... I don't know exactly what I was thinking of but I remember leaving my room [or, I guess, waiting to leave my room].)

a Freudian slip

"I hope that wasn't a lie coz it sounded like a good truth." 09/04/05:)

This was likely in response to something I said that I didn't have time to verify the truth of. Sometimes I say things in faith; I say things that I hope and expect to be true and often don't get a chance to renege (i.e. tell the actual truth).

Part of the Slip was that I could have been lying but I didn't give myself enough chance to be sure and part of it is that I secretly hope to get away with it because I have no intention of reverting to clarify.

Seriously, I do have some intention but, you know, who has time for the truth when there's so much life to be lived around here?

covenant

"Just get me out of this semester and I'm Yours."

09/04/05:) 16h15

complimented

First, in a music class, I played (with a violinist) an original composition over a Mozart progression. Among other things, the teacher said, "That's the kind of thing that would make Mozart go, 'Yea! Right on!' wherever he is."

Second, I asked for something in jest that I didn't deserve and it was given to me. I was asked after in a direct, personal, unexplained way.

Thank you, vous deux.

lovely

A highlight of my day that's absurd enough to be worth mentioning:

I discovered how to play major chords in first-inverson on the accordion -- with EASE. I suppose I always knew how to do it but to-day I discovered just how ingeniously the instrument was crafted to give us those I6 chords. Amazing. :)