I think about my summer often, some days more than others, usually with a grand mixture of feelings. I have yet to decide how I will feel about the experience on the whole as I look back on it. I know for a fact that Montreal Project 2005 will never be re-created. I also know for a fact that I might give almost anything to have Montreal Project 2005 re-created (even for a day). It sounds like I am in love. What I have left to hold on to are memories (which are awesome but I fear will fade) and the relationships with the people. The truth is that most of what I miss is the people but that is not all. It was les gens, and then how we lived and worked together, and how we were in the same place for a terminable amount of time for the same reason. I want to be with all 39 of them with God, too, in Montreal. THAT would make the experience uniquely the same. (You heard me.) What can I do from here? I know that I have not fully let go of Montreal - the city and the project. I know that I can return to the city but I feel like my heart is breaking when I reflect on what once was and will never be again.
How dramatic and devastating! I need to get a grip and some sleep. I will re-read this au matin and if I still agree with myself yikes. If I think this is too hyperbolic, I will change it. Hopefully I will have an epiphany to-night that will cure all of this. :)
Sunday, 23 October 2005
Saturday, 22 October 2005
Neologisms (ENGL*3120) part 2
22/10:
(16)"inter-cross" - sharing across borders, divisions, etc.
11/11:
(17)"percussionalizing" - using a percussionist in an ensemble
16/12:
(18)"triced" - trying to be nice
(19)"redonkerous" - donkey-like ridiculousness
x/11:
(20)"stressfullest" - the most stressful
(16)"inter-cross" - sharing across borders, divisions, etc.
11/11:
(17)"percussionalizing" - using a percussionist in an ensemble
16/12:
(18)"triced" - trying to be nice
(19)"redonkerous" - donkey-like ridiculousness
x/11:
(20)"stressfullest" - the most stressful
characterizing
God, thank You for who I am.
I want to try to describe the place I am in at present because I find it quite fascinating. This evening, I sat down for some quiet time with God after a few days' abstinence from it. I have been putting off intimate time with God in favor of school work. Of course I know this is a bad idea as I do it but usually that knowledge convicts me. Here is what was different this time: I felt (being in a place now where I am still riding the run-off from summer project) that I had some kind of God-closeness on reserve. The truth is that I could pass one day where I do not spend quiet time with God and be "OK." By that I mean I would not feel separated from God, and He would know my (good) reason(s) to have foregone the time. After two days, however, it is no longer venial. My point is that the reserve theory is actually valid but that this time - these recent days/weeks - I have not had my reserve adequately full to not have QT for 5 days or so. It is like our body using food ingested for immediate energy or storing it for long-term purposes as fat. If you fast for a week, your body will survive by using its long-term stored energy. However, if you are without food for several months, your body will have nothing to live on. Further, if you stop a fast and then miss one day of healthy eating soon thereafter, it will be far more devastating then - in your compromised state - to draw on empty reserves than when you are in the middle of a proper-eating streak.
I finally buckled down (it helped that it was Friday and I didn't feel anything else could be "more pressing" and that I wanted to be with You when I walked into CCC's weekly meeting) this afternoon and read a portion of Acts 3.
This evening, eight CCC members, students, went to The Manor (Guelph's strip club) to pray and I found myself understanding better the verses of Acts 3 I had focussed on. In verses 15 and 16 (12-14 for context), the Bible says that people from Jerusalem and places surrounding Jerusalem brought out their sick either directly to the Apostles to be healed or at least to lay in the street and hopefully be passed by Peter's shadow to be healed. This made me realize that a) people are desperate (a shadow?!?) and b) they will bring out their ailments if they know the cure is available. I asked myself: am I making the cure available? Do people know that there is a person who performs perfect, miraculous healing free of charge and we are His ambassadors? I need this to be broadcast from my life. I thought at the Manor that, yes, there are people here who would bring out their sick if they truly knew what Jesus was all about and where to find him.
At the weekly meeting this evening Beth Fisher spoke to us about glorifying God and mentioned that we need to have Him on display; we need our lives to show that we treasure Him. Telling the world that we are unashamed of Him and have no desires beyond Him definitely brings Him glory. Bexth spoke well, I want to peruse her notes.
The men of the Bible, of the New Testament, of Acts, they were so bold because they held on to the truth. This is something I definitely need to get into. If I know that the truth is absolute and that God will back me up, there is no battle I can loose. Part of me often thinks it needs to make excuses for God or something silly like that. I am asking God to change my mindset about this because I need some refinement.
Just to clarify: the connection between my three ideas (devotionals, the Manor and Bexth) is that there are people who want to hear or who are ready to hear but we need to make it painfully clear that we have news to tell. In verse 12 it says, "all the believers used to meet together" and so I should remember to be that big presence with our group. There aint no shaaame in it!
I also realized aujourd'hui that I need to serve Campus Crusade for Christ, I need to serve Christ for the time being. It does not matter how I feel about the organization (you KNOW it does not matter how I feel about serving Christ) or what I think my future with it will be. All that matters is that this is where God has placed me for now. Why would He let me graduate if I started cursing and vandalizing my highschool? Take that lesson from Joseph, son of Jacob: serve where you are placed. If God is keeping you in a low place to get you ready to do something great, it is good to be in a low place.
Thank You, God, for all You are.
I want to try to describe the place I am in at present because I find it quite fascinating. This evening, I sat down for some quiet time with God after a few days' abstinence from it. I have been putting off intimate time with God in favor of school work. Of course I know this is a bad idea as I do it but usually that knowledge convicts me. Here is what was different this time: I felt (being in a place now where I am still riding the run-off from summer project) that I had some kind of God-closeness on reserve. The truth is that I could pass one day where I do not spend quiet time with God and be "OK." By that I mean I would not feel separated from God, and He would know my (good) reason(s) to have foregone the time. After two days, however, it is no longer venial. My point is that the reserve theory is actually valid but that this time - these recent days/weeks - I have not had my reserve adequately full to not have QT for 5 days or so. It is like our body using food ingested for immediate energy or storing it for long-term purposes as fat. If you fast for a week, your body will survive by using its long-term stored energy. However, if you are without food for several months, your body will have nothing to live on. Further, if you stop a fast and then miss one day of healthy eating soon thereafter, it will be far more devastating then - in your compromised state - to draw on empty reserves than when you are in the middle of a proper-eating streak.
I finally buckled down (it helped that it was Friday and I didn't feel anything else could be "more pressing" and that I wanted to be with You when I walked into CCC's weekly meeting) this afternoon and read a portion of Acts 3.
This evening, eight CCC members, students, went to The Manor (Guelph's strip club) to pray and I found myself understanding better the verses of Acts 3 I had focussed on. In verses 15 and 16 (12-14 for context), the Bible says that people from Jerusalem and places surrounding Jerusalem brought out their sick either directly to the Apostles to be healed or at least to lay in the street and hopefully be passed by Peter's shadow to be healed. This made me realize that a) people are desperate (a shadow?!?) and b) they will bring out their ailments if they know the cure is available. I asked myself: am I making the cure available? Do people know that there is a person who performs perfect, miraculous healing free of charge and we are His ambassadors? I need this to be broadcast from my life. I thought at the Manor that, yes, there are people here who would bring out their sick if they truly knew what Jesus was all about and where to find him.
At the weekly meeting this evening Beth Fisher spoke to us about glorifying God and mentioned that we need to have Him on display; we need our lives to show that we treasure Him. Telling the world that we are unashamed of Him and have no desires beyond Him definitely brings Him glory. Bexth spoke well, I want to peruse her notes.
The men of the Bible, of the New Testament, of Acts, they were so bold because they held on to the truth. This is something I definitely need to get into. If I know that the truth is absolute and that God will back me up, there is no battle I can loose. Part of me often thinks it needs to make excuses for God or something silly like that. I am asking God to change my mindset about this because I need some refinement.
Just to clarify: the connection between my three ideas (devotionals, the Manor and Bexth) is that there are people who want to hear or who are ready to hear but we need to make it painfully clear that we have news to tell. In verse 12 it says, "all the believers used to meet together" and so I should remember to be that big presence with our group. There aint no shaaame in it!
I also realized aujourd'hui that I need to serve Campus Crusade for Christ, I need to serve Christ for the time being. It does not matter how I feel about the organization (you KNOW it does not matter how I feel about serving Christ) or what I think my future with it will be. All that matters is that this is where God has placed me for now. Why would He let me graduate if I started cursing and vandalizing my highschool? Take that lesson from Joseph, son of Jacob: serve where you are placed. If God is keeping you in a low place to get you ready to do something great, it is good to be in a low place.
Thank You, God, for all You are.
Thursday, 20 October 2005
to-day
This morning when I woke up I was feeling many things that seemed new or unprecidented in some way.
At first I felt like a dead dog on a highway. When that had passed (after some walking around and increase brain activity) I remarked that I was surprized - based on what time it was - that I did not feel as if I had put Tired the Insomniac to bed a week ago. Ahh that's not a comfortable feeling.
But seriously folks. For once I got up at a time where I could - get this - a) take a shower, b) pack food to take to school, c) pack my bag, d) read new emails and e) have just a smidgen of time to pray for the day! Wow and half.. I am not even mad. Who knew the glory of the "early to bed, early to rise" proverb? I'd love to say that I would like to do it every day but I am pretty sure that will never happen. My cycle is pretty far from reformation.
Not even mad.
At first I felt like a dead dog on a highway. When that had passed (after some walking around and increase brain activity) I remarked that I was surprized - based on what time it was - that I did not feel as if I had put Tired the Insomniac to bed a week ago. Ahh that's not a comfortable feeling.
But seriously folks. For once I got up at a time where I could - get this - a) take a shower, b) pack food to take to school, c) pack my bag, d) read new emails and e) have just a smidgen of time to pray for the day! Wow and half.. I am not even mad. Who knew the glory of the "early to bed, early to rise" proverb? I'd love to say that I would like to do it every day but I am pretty sure that will never happen. My cycle is pretty far from reformation.
Not even mad.
the double-take
I turned away from my computer, crumpled wrapping in hand, looking for a small black container low to the ground. The first thing I saw that fit that description as I wheeled was a fellow library patron's relatively large purse. I was about to throw the piece in what my brain assumed was the right place but I realized it was not before I had made a full extension of my arm. As I turned back slightly as if to start again; right myself and also laugh a bit, my subconscious told me to throw my garbage in her purse anyways.
Monday, 17 October 2005
thoughts part two
(1)
Why is it that concepts related to God make more sense to us when we take them out of context?
(2)
Friend, when you choose conversation with me over sleep, then I will know how much you value me.
[sister post: 27/04/05:)]
Why is it that concepts related to God make more sense to us when we take them out of context?
(2)
Friend, when you choose conversation with me over sleep, then I will know how much you value me.
[sister post: 27/04/05:)]
Wednesday, 28 September 2005
revelation
Trusting in God should not feel like a last resort, a last-ditch attempt or a long shot. Trusting in God should bring joy and confidence.
Tuesday, 20 September 2005
archived
I finded this email whilst rooting through my "sent-mail" folder. I sent it on 29 March and it's something I'd like to record because apparently, money troubles & I like to bring much glory to God. Let the jury note, Exhibit B:
"Hey -- do you guys want to hear something great about what sounds like an answer to prayer?
"Remember how I just told you about that call I recieved this afternoon asking meto pay a $300 debt? Well, just before our meeting I went and paid $200 because that's all I have and I called the beaureau back to give them confirmation of the payment.
"And what does the lady say to me? Not, 'When can you pay the remaining $100?' but, 'Is it alright if I settle the account?'
"'Settle' is fancy money people's talk for 'wipe out the debt of.' It's not asgood as having your account say 'Paid in Full' but 'Settled in Full' is fine byme. I totally just got off the hook! Yummy.
"That's it.. I just wanted to get that out there. :D"
"Hey -- do you guys want to hear something great about what sounds like an answer to prayer?
"Remember how I just told you about that call I recieved this afternoon asking meto pay a $300 debt? Well, just before our meeting I went and paid $200 because that's all I have and I called the beaureau back to give them confirmation of the payment.
"And what does the lady say to me? Not, 'When can you pay the remaining $100?' but, 'Is it alright if I settle the account?'
"'Settle' is fancy money people's talk for 'wipe out the debt of.' It's not asgood as having your account say 'Paid in Full' but 'Settled in Full' is fine byme. I totally just got off the hook! Yummy.
"That's it.. I just wanted to get that out there. :D"
Monday, 19 September 2005
Neologisms (ENGL*3120)
Here are some of the words that I have heard in the past week that are not officially parts of the English language. Shakespeare created 7 000 new words within his 38 plays and so I would like to see how many new words I will come across in all my daily goings-about in a small effort to knock Shakespeare off one of his pedestals.
19/09:
(1) "boke" - past tense of "bike"
(2) "servitudey" - capable or inclined toward service
(3) "fuzzied" - [ref.: "cute and fuzzied"] to be made pleasant in a very soft or childish way
(4) "environarc" - one who keeps peers under tight reign and surveillance on environmental issues
(5)"tonicizing" - turning a chord (or note) into the tonic or tonic key; essentially modulation
18/09:
(6)"twack" - variant of "whack" (i.e. "You can twack her across the face.")
(7)"volumous" - variant of "voluminous"
(8)"exampled" - variant of "exemplified", replacing "made an example of"*
(9)"jokeage" - act of joking
17/09:
(10)"irrelated" - variant of "unrelated"
(11)"sensicality" - the instance of being sensible (sensibleness)
16/09:
(12)"incontainable" - unable to be contained
Yikes! This will be fun!
*OK, I just discovered that, according to dictionary.com, "exampled" is in fact a word but, the author they reference for context is good ol' Shakespeare, thus I am hesistant to assent to the validity claimed here.
20/09:
Apparently, my professor for this course (ENGL*3120) can get away with using words like "funnily" and "fetishized." This does not make me happy. "Militarized" and "pre-exist" also work but alas: "inter-affiliated" does NOT count as a real word.
(11)"viberacious" - possessing an extremely good vibe
(12)"karaokeing" - participating in karaoke
(13)"motivationer" - one who motivates; variant of "motivater"
22/09:
(14)"smush-proof" - incapable of being squashed ("smush" incidentally, is not a word either, despite its widespread use)
30/09:
(15)"appleness" - the quality of being apple-like S
15/10:
(15)"deadjust" - to become unadjusted S
22/10:
(16) "inter-cross" - overlapping; sharing across borders, divisions, etc. S
Sunday, 18 September 2005
declaration part three
Notes on Random - not initiative - Evangelism (from 07/09/05:) 03h48)
#1 I won't be a student forever. Surely I can bear this for two years and then support CCC from the outside while planting a movement at ESA.
#2 Saying, "I'm not cut out for it," is like saying, "God cannot use me in this way." (Exodus 4:14-7)
#3 Pick a day and think/pray about it -seriously- to figure out what your ideal sitch would be. Surveys or specific questions are not cop-outs. Do what you do to [p]reach the Gospezillio. (I have had this concept in my head that straight-up randoms are the most elite - most bare - form of evangelism and should, accordingly, always be the ultimate goal. Other kinds, the "sugar-coated" versions (surveys, etc.) are mere stepping stones toward random evangelism. Implicit in this concept is the idea that random evangelism is the best way. Or that bare random evangelism is the best kind of random evangelism. Not true.) Whatever gets you into a conversation is what's right. Being uncomfortable is not an indication that I'm doing it "right" (in God's will). Some people randomly evangelize delightedly. Some smile in obedience and find joy there. My excitement should come from having occasion to spread the Good Word; not in the type of venue I do that.
Scenario one: type I enjoy
I may start more readily and be more eager to prolong and expand the instance
Implication: I will find excellence in how God made me for this type
Scenario two: type I do not enjoy
I will take a moment to steel myself; I will trip and falter here & there feeling out of place; I will not extend the ordeal longer than its designated duration
Implication: I will find excellence in how God will use me beyond my ability (Acts 4:13)
#4 I should set a schedule for a commitment to random evangelism. Do not be legalistic or too lax. This is not about you.
#5 Do not work hard at learning to evangelize ("witness," even!) so that you can tell the story. Let your actions do that.
#6 Find Biblical bases for all of this. (later added)
#7 I am not alone in this. God is doing the work AND I have many team members.
#1 I won't be a student forever. Surely I can bear this for two years and then support CCC from the outside while planting a movement at ESA.
#2 Saying, "I'm not cut out for it," is like saying, "God cannot use me in this way." (Exodus 4:14-7)
#3 Pick a day and think/pray about it -seriously- to figure out what your ideal sitch would be. Surveys or specific questions are not cop-outs. Do what you do to [p]reach the Gospezillio. (I have had this concept in my head that straight-up randoms are the most elite - most bare - form of evangelism and should, accordingly, always be the ultimate goal. Other kinds, the "sugar-coated" versions (surveys, etc.) are mere stepping stones toward random evangelism. Implicit in this concept is the idea that random evangelism is the best way. Or that bare random evangelism is the best kind of random evangelism. Not true.) Whatever gets you into a conversation is what's right. Being uncomfortable is not an indication that I'm doing it "right" (in God's will). Some people randomly evangelize delightedly. Some smile in obedience and find joy there. My excitement should come from having occasion to spread the Good Word; not in the type of venue I do that.
Scenario one: type I enjoy
I may start more readily and be more eager to prolong and expand the instance
Implication: I will find excellence in how God made me for this type
Scenario two: type I do not enjoy
I will take a moment to steel myself; I will trip and falter here & there feeling out of place; I will not extend the ordeal longer than its designated duration
Implication: I will find excellence in how God will use me beyond my ability (Acts 4:13)
#4 I should set a schedule for a commitment to random evangelism. Do not be legalistic or too lax. This is not about you.
#5 Do not work hard at learning to evangelize ("witness," even!) so that you can tell the story. Let your actions do that.
#6 Find Biblical bases for all of this. (later added)
#7 I am not alone in this. God is doing the work AND I have many team members.
an excerpt (1)
From a mass email addressed to fellow project members:
"Lastly, I want to say that I recently realized (or re-realized, if you will) that we need to be transfering all our energy, excitement, eagerness and new-found equipped-ness to pushing the Gospel, not Campus Crusade for Christ. Myself, I need to sometimes be reminded that this is merely an organization. Yes, it's an organization that has God's approval and is changing lives but it's not the only way to fulfill the Great Commission. Be sure to think outside the box when need be."
22/08/05:)Wednesday, 14 September 2005
finally analogous
Sinning when you're already hurt is like choosing to walk in the rain when you're in a bad mood: it's just comforting somehow to permit self-destruction.
Tuesday, 13 September 2005
Courting Happiness
This evening I move down Winegard Walk - my custom of the week - and feel that the air is thick but not too heavy. I feel as though I am pressed but not crushed, persecuted not abandonned; struck down but not destroyed. I cannot say I like this feeling but I also cannot say that I am in a rush to get out of it. It seems necessary for the moment though I do not know why nor whence it comes.
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Follow up from yesterday:
- OSAP, where art thou? (J'ai un peu de la peur.)
- The dreaded wait for reprimand is now over. I did recieve grace (how sweet the sound) but it came with a healthy side of just discipline for which I should also be thankful. It is good to be punished and learn the gravity of your actions sometimes. I take this as God-punishment because I prayed so much about this and not a self-punishment.
- More news on the revelation about my friend reveals itself below. (I wrote it before inserting this Monday-follow-up.) She started out with it somewhat skillfully avoiding any explicit references and, an hour or so later, I told her that I, ".. basically think I already have it figured out." This seemed to alleviate some of the burden from her. We tried to get to talking about it - nothing is completely in the open - but I did get to at least show her that I am more focussed on her than "the issue."
---
I was thinking about things I might say in a situation I have been toying with in my head as of late. I know the situation will arise in the relatively near future so I would like to be prepared for it. I think that I have an assumption box to work myself out of and that is a very fickle operation, indeed. One must be eloquent and precise on explanations to show that one is not making excuses or groping for reasons.
My thoughts:
When you assume that I view (and consequently will treat) you one way because of the beliefs you perceive me to have, then I need to tell you that, no, it's not like that. You might think I am going to condemn, judge or emotionally disown you because you know that Christianity says homosexuality is wrong. Christianity can say what it likes -- Christianity is NOT what I believe in. I believe in God, in Christ, and yes, in the Book. But I will tell you what those things say about you. They say - Jesus says - that He sees you as His lovely creation and He does not want you to change ANYTHING before you come to Him.
He loves you as you are.
Every other thing that God and the Bible say about who you are comes second to how much He loves you. I follow in the footsteps of Christ and so I see you in the same light.
---
Follow up from yesterday:
- OSAP, where art thou? (J'ai un peu de la peur.)
- The dreaded wait for reprimand is now over. I did recieve grace (how sweet the sound) but it came with a healthy side of just discipline for which I should also be thankful. It is good to be punished and learn the gravity of your actions sometimes. I take this as God-punishment because I prayed so much about this and not a self-punishment.
- More news on the revelation about my friend reveals itself below. (I wrote it before inserting this Monday-follow-up.) She started out with it somewhat skillfully avoiding any explicit references and, an hour or so later, I told her that I, ".. basically think I already have it figured out." This seemed to alleviate some of the burden from her. We tried to get to talking about it - nothing is completely in the open - but I did get to at least show her that I am more focussed on her than "the issue."
---
I was thinking about things I might say in a situation I have been toying with in my head as of late. I know the situation will arise in the relatively near future so I would like to be prepared for it. I think that I have an assumption box to work myself out of and that is a very fickle operation, indeed. One must be eloquent and precise on explanations to show that one is not making excuses or groping for reasons.
My thoughts:
When you assume that I view (and consequently will treat) you one way because of the beliefs you perceive me to have, then I need to tell you that, no, it's not like that. You might think I am going to condemn, judge or emotionally disown you because you know that Christianity says homosexuality is wrong. Christianity can say what it likes -- Christianity is NOT what I believe in. I believe in God, in Christ, and yes, in the Book. But I will tell you what those things say about you. They say - Jesus says - that He sees you as His lovely creation and He does not want you to change ANYTHING before you come to Him.
He loves you as you are.
Every other thing that God and the Bible say about who you are comes second to how much He loves you. I follow in the footsteps of Christ and so I see you in the same light.
Monday, 12 September 2005
a challenge (2)
Remember that person that you loved so much you wanted every and any chance to be with them? Any chance to get a remnant of them? Any chance to devote thought to them because they were simply too lovely? You’d want to be around them even in a bad mood – albeit at a distance – even when they seem to be deliberately hurting or neglecting you, you were just glad to be in their presence.
Why is it not the same with God?
Why is it not the same with God?
the first day of classes 2005-2006
I only have two things to say to you:
(1) I barely saw Busy as Iwhizzed by it changing its tire on the side of the highway.
(2) I like to leave things until the day after The Last Minute has retired and its grandchildren have forgotten it.
(The second one did not actually come into play to-day; I have been getting surprizingly better with these things.)
One thought: I hope that I get to attend classes in a less tired state from hence forth because I noticed my comprehension has been down all day and my already sordid out-going side is all but completely stifled. I want to get to know my classmates but that aint happening when I am struggling to take notes, even.
It was a good first day. Why?
I am certainly going to enjoy both of my English classes (Shakespeare Receptions/Adaptations and Twentieth-Century Drama) because the professors are great - the kind just ooze their love for the subject they teach - the reading list is reasonable, and the class sizes are dece.
I will have a much harder time enjoying my music classes (Music History I and III [don't ask why I did both in one semester.. yikes]) because I find it difficult to absorb this kind of information for some reason. But there are redeeming qualitites: (a) I know cool people in both classes and (b) that the information itself is something that I am interested in (it's just the memorizing and understanding that is more difficult to achieve).
I met a cool girl during my lunch-o break.
We had a great preliminary first DG meeting at my house where we shared tales of our summers. God is good and that's basically all we were saying -- in many more words. And for the meeting, I made and ate some cool cinnamon buns that are like magic plus lovely.
I was able to hand in my remaining supporting documentation required for my OSAP entitlement in a manner far less painful than expected.
It was a crapper of a first day. Why?
I (consciously) broke one of the University's residence rules a week ago and I have a meeting regarding that on the morrow. The dread is KILLING me. Yikes. I'll tell you all about that Tuesday. I neeeed grace right here.
I found out something about a friend of mine that I had been wondering and praying about for the past couple of days that made me gasp, snapping my head around and then just hold my head in my hands in something like despair, unable to grasp the news. HOW will this be dealt with? WHEN will I get the full story first-hand? Tune in next blog to find out.
What else is there to say except that God is good and that if I stand on that, there is NO going wrong!
[Man, I don't understand my recent increase in usaages of the exclamation point. It's crazy.]
(1) I barely saw Busy as Iwhizzed by it changing its tire on the side of the highway.
(2) I like to leave things until the day after The Last Minute has retired and its grandchildren have forgotten it.
(The second one did not actually come into play to-day; I have been getting surprizingly better with these things.)
One thought: I hope that I get to attend classes in a less tired state from hence forth because I noticed my comprehension has been down all day and my already sordid out-going side is all but completely stifled. I want to get to know my classmates but that aint happening when I am struggling to take notes, even.
It was a good first day. Why?
I am certainly going to enjoy both of my English classes (Shakespeare Receptions/Adaptations and Twentieth-Century Drama) because the professors are great - the kind just ooze their love for the subject they teach - the reading list is reasonable, and the class sizes are dece.
I will have a much harder time enjoying my music classes (Music History I and III [don't ask why I did both in one semester.. yikes]) because I find it difficult to absorb this kind of information for some reason. But there are redeeming qualitites: (a) I know cool people in both classes and (b) that the information itself is something that I am interested in (it's just the memorizing and understanding that is more difficult to achieve).
I met a cool girl during my lunch-o break.
We had a great preliminary first DG meeting at my house where we shared tales of our summers. God is good and that's basically all we were saying -- in many more words. And for the meeting, I made and ate some cool cinnamon buns that are like magic plus lovely.
I was able to hand in my remaining supporting documentation required for my OSAP entitlement in a manner far less painful than expected.
It was a crapper of a first day. Why?
I (consciously) broke one of the University's residence rules a week ago and I have a meeting regarding that on the morrow. The dread is KILLING me. Yikes. I'll tell you all about that Tuesday. I neeeed grace right here.
I found out something about a friend of mine that I had been wondering and praying about for the past couple of days that made me gasp, snapping my head around and then just hold my head in my hands in something like despair, unable to grasp the news. HOW will this be dealt with? WHEN will I get the full story first-hand? Tune in next blog to find out.
What else is there to say except that God is good and that if I stand on that, there is NO going wrong!
[Man, I don't understand my recent increase in usaages of the exclamation point. It's crazy.]
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